Damn Blasted Nonsense

Ok. Day 5 on the midsummer nights fast. Suffered an unfortunate setback. again : ( I know. I suck. Yesterday morn i was again down another 2.8 pounds. Yay. Unfortunatly I got to work and discovered my computer was still being serviced so I could not do my usual blog/thinspo/websurf during the idle HOURS that i have to bun each day in between work. However. I did ok no food survived the whole day. I even decided it would be a good day for a SWF. That threw me. The water made the scale go up and of course i check it every like 2 min so i was getting more and more discouraged It went back to starting but not below. then after work i went to a friends house. Her whole fam and some of their friends were there and I of course looked like hell. (no makeup) and of course someone haddd to point it out. and of course people were watching from then on so everytime i was handed food i was watched til i ate it. but oh well thats just one part. that might have been dealable but it unfortunatly made me hungry and when i got home i of course went for more food and i am ashamed to say ive been eating since. now. normally i can just start afresh when i wake up and just deal but no. i called a friend last night and we stayed up talking literally til i had to leave for work. soo it still feels like yesterday. and i feel like hell. sort of lol so finaly in a last meal attempt today i had "lunch" (a ridiculous amount of horridness) about 2 hours ago. and then it was chug chug with some SW and into the bathroom it was as i was quite sick of feeling full. It all came heaving and all was well and good when i started noticing veggies from the stirfry i had YESTERDAY and cookies from this morn coming up as well. WTF. i was quite shocked. I have no idea why my body didnt digest the food but i cant say im unhappy about it. at least some of it came out tho i know it makes no difference. anyhoo im starting fresh. I just wish i could sleep lol. I hope everyone else is doing well. Oh and i was up 3.5 pounds from my morn weight yesterday so im not thrilled about that one :( oh well. Try try again right. Bye bye for now