I am a failure in all aspects of the term. yesterday did not at all go as expected. and it was just a liquid fast!!! that's how sad my willpower is. i hate myself so much right now. why cant i have the willpower of the beautiful models that grace the catwalk. or those girls u walk by and cant help but stare at as their hipbones protrude from under their shirts, their collarbones sharp as they walk unaffected and careless knowing their beauty. i was good all day yesterday and then when it came time to go home that evening my mom picked me up and immediately im stressed. and i had unfortunately already been craving the soup id made the kids for lunch and of course it was leftover night and we unfortunately have some delightfully yummy ones in the fridge. needless to say my willpower diminished and i binged. fortunately i was able to purge but im still quite unhappy about the whole thing. its just not enough to purge. I DO NOT WANT TO EAT! fortunately i haven't had much of an appetite today. im going to try a saltwater cleanse for the first time. hope it works.